Weight: 181
Breakfast: cold, leftover pizza. (Not the best, I know. But I was running late and it was in the fridge at work...)
Lunch: leftover salmon and rice. Yummy!!
Snack: Kashi peanut peanut butter chewy granola bar
Drinks: 2 sodas (both diet) and 1 bottle of water (20 oz bottle)
Exercise...I feel the itch for a run, but I'm not sure if it will happen...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Another Thursday, another bad decision or two.
Jaime did better this week about keeping me accountable. So here I am, telling you that I suck.
Weight: 183 (I HATE THE 80'S!!! Come on people. Maybe a fast will help...)
I have not been making good food decisions, let's just leave it at that for now.
Although, we did have salmon and rice w/broccoli last night. I am very surprised and somewhat impressed with myself how much I love salmon. We get this blackened salmon from Sam's Club and the seasoning is so good on it I can eat it without any sauce or anything! Yummy!
I hardly ran at all on Tuesday...only ran 1/2 mile and walked 2 1/2 miles. I don't know what it is about Tuesdays that makes me lazy. I mean, I hit a new PR of 35:45 at the 5k last Saturday, and then gave up after 1/2 mile on Tuesday?? I gave the blame to the nice weather. It was 70 degrees and I was in pants and a SS shirt. Too much sleeve for me and the pants were killing me. Plus, everything was either falling down (pants) or sliding up (shirts). Talk about a loss of concentration.
Anyway, I'm not in a great mood today, so I have nothing encouraging to add. Hope you all are doing better than I am. Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow!
Weight: 183 (I HATE THE 80'S!!! Come on people. Maybe a fast will help...)
I have not been making good food decisions, let's just leave it at that for now.
Although, we did have salmon and rice w/broccoli last night. I am very surprised and somewhat impressed with myself how much I love salmon. We get this blackened salmon from Sam's Club and the seasoning is so good on it I can eat it without any sauce or anything! Yummy!
I hardly ran at all on Tuesday...only ran 1/2 mile and walked 2 1/2 miles. I don't know what it is about Tuesdays that makes me lazy. I mean, I hit a new PR of 35:45 at the 5k last Saturday, and then gave up after 1/2 mile on Tuesday?? I gave the blame to the nice weather. It was 70 degrees and I was in pants and a SS shirt. Too much sleeve for me and the pants were killing me. Plus, everything was either falling down (pants) or sliding up (shirts). Talk about a loss of concentration.
Anyway, I'm not in a great mood today, so I have nothing encouraging to add. Hope you all are doing better than I am. Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
PMS.
I have (embarassingly) been on an eating binge today. I mean, BAD. I had Special K for breakfast, promptly followed by a small brownie and then an Otis Spunkmeyer cookie. Lunch I had some pasta with tomato sauce, not so bad. Until you add the caramel candy bar I purchased from someone's grandson and a Fanta soda. It took me until right now, 3:34 and almost done with my chips & salsa/cheese dip mixture to realize I have been pigging out due to PMS.
I'm stressed and I'm crabby.
I feel like eating and I'm not even sorry.
I probably will be when I see the scale tomorrow, but for now, I don't care.
I'm stressed and I'm crabby.
I feel like eating and I'm not even sorry.
I probably will be when I see the scale tomorrow, but for now, I don't care.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Happy St. Patrick's Day!!
Weight: 181
Breakfast: Kashi Peanut Peanut Butter granola bar & a Diet Dr. Pepper w/Cherry (I think I'm officially addicted to this delicious drink!) I will probably have my Special K cereal w/skim milk in an hour or so...
Snack: I'm allowing myself to indulge in on of my favorite snacks...the cakey sugar cookies topped with icing. You know the ones that are out at every store for every holiday? How can anyone NOT love these babies!! But, I kept myself from having one yesterday and decided I would have one today if I kept from eating one yesterday. Reward, thy name is COOKIE!!! (O:
Lunch: Drug rep is bringing something in...not sure what, but I have every intention of eating mostly salad and itsy bitsy portions of whatever else there is. Can't be rude, but can't be fat either.
Exercise: Today I probably will skip any sort of exercise because it is a "rest day" as far as running is concerned.
Weight: 181
Breakfast: Kashi Peanut Peanut Butter granola bar & a Diet Dr. Pepper w/Cherry (I think I'm officially addicted to this delicious drink!) I will probably have my Special K cereal w/skim milk in an hour or so...
Snack: I'm allowing myself to indulge in on of my favorite snacks...the cakey sugar cookies topped with icing. You know the ones that are out at every store for every holiday? How can anyone NOT love these babies!! But, I kept myself from having one yesterday and decided I would have one today if I kept from eating one yesterday. Reward, thy name is COOKIE!!! (O:
Lunch: Drug rep is bringing something in...not sure what, but I have every intention of eating mostly salad and itsy bitsy portions of whatever else there is. Can't be rude, but can't be fat either.
Exercise: Today I probably will skip any sort of exercise because it is a "rest day" as far as running is concerned.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I make bad decisions...
There is one thing that is stronger than my desire to lose weight and become a healthier person. That one thing is my ability (or lack thereof) to make good decisions on a regular basis. Every day, I psych myself up to keep making the right snack choices and small food portions and then I blow it. I tell myself that I can have an ice cream bar after dinner because it is only 1 WW point. Or, that because I ate really healthy all day, it won’t kill me to have a small side of mac’n’cheese with my grilled chicken for dinner. None of these decisions, in themselves, are that bad.
The reason I chose to go the WW route was so that I didn’t have to completely give up some of my favorites (mac’n’cheese and ice cream bars definitely included). The issue I am struggling with today is that when I allow myself one treat item, it turns into 2 or 3 treat items…and then I spiral down and ruin the whole day (healthy-food-wise).
I am trying to decide what to do with my struggle. Should I reign in my allowable foods for a time, until I have changed my habits to include almost completely healthy foods on a consistent basis? Should I just try to do better today than I did yesterday? I don’t want to limit myself so harshly that I start to hate the very thing I am trying to make part of my new lifestyle. I just don’t know and I’m having a down day.
Today isn’t going to help either. We are having a St. Patrick’s Day luncheon, and I know there are absolutely NO foods downstairs that are on the “good food” list. If I can make it to 4:30 without devouring 7 cookies and half a bowl of dip with chips, I am going to consider it a success…in fact, I have decided to allow myself ONE cookie (only because they are my FAVORITE kind) and I will take itsy bitsy portions of whatever else is lurking down there. Tonight for dinner, I will make a good, healthy decision of some sort after running and I will look forward to doing MUCH better tomorrow.
I know weight loss isn’t easy and I know this post is really just a whine-fest, so I’m sorry. I just feel like I should document how I’m feeling on a not-so-great day. That way, the next time I feel down and think I’m going to give up- I can look back and see how far I have (hopefully) come by then! Here’s hopin’!
The reason I chose to go the WW route was so that I didn’t have to completely give up some of my favorites (mac’n’cheese and ice cream bars definitely included). The issue I am struggling with today is that when I allow myself one treat item, it turns into 2 or 3 treat items…and then I spiral down and ruin the whole day (healthy-food-wise).
I am trying to decide what to do with my struggle. Should I reign in my allowable foods for a time, until I have changed my habits to include almost completely healthy foods on a consistent basis? Should I just try to do better today than I did yesterday? I don’t want to limit myself so harshly that I start to hate the very thing I am trying to make part of my new lifestyle. I just don’t know and I’m having a down day.
Today isn’t going to help either. We are having a St. Patrick’s Day luncheon, and I know there are absolutely NO foods downstairs that are on the “good food” list. If I can make it to 4:30 without devouring 7 cookies and half a bowl of dip with chips, I am going to consider it a success…in fact, I have decided to allow myself ONE cookie (only because they are my FAVORITE kind) and I will take itsy bitsy portions of whatever else is lurking down there. Tonight for dinner, I will make a good, healthy decision of some sort after running and I will look forward to doing MUCH better tomorrow.
I know weight loss isn’t easy and I know this post is really just a whine-fest, so I’m sorry. I just feel like I should document how I’m feeling on a not-so-great day. That way, the next time I feel down and think I’m going to give up- I can look back and see how far I have (hopefully) come by then! Here’s hopin’!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Weight: 180! (I even jiggled on the scale a little to see if it would change, and it didn’t! Woo!)
Breakfast: Special K granola w/skim milk & ½ a banana
Lunch: Packed stewed potatoes, green beans and a grilled chicken breast.
Snacks: Packed red, yellow and orange pepper strips and an apple to eat with peanut butter
This morning, I started thinking about how my weight loss isn’t going all that great. And while there are definitely things I need to be doing to get better results (exercise more than 2 runs a week, cut back even more on what I’m eating, etc.), I had to remind myself that I had already lost 10 pounds since Thanksgiving. I think most of it was just water weight, since I went from 196 to 186 in a little over a week. But still- those would have been nice numbers to see right now.
I am trying not to get down on myself too much, because that really won’t help anything. What I need to do is set my goals/rewards that I have talked about several times, but have yet to write out. So, that is my plan for today. I want to break down my next 15-20ish pounds into 5 pound segments and assign rewards for each goal that is met. Some of them won’t seem like anything major to you, but they are little, somewhat-superficial, modern conveniences that will make me feel good and hopefully spur me on to keep going.
Breakfast: Special K granola w/skim milk & ½ a banana
Lunch: Packed stewed potatoes, green beans and a grilled chicken breast.
Snacks: Packed red, yellow and orange pepper strips and an apple to eat with peanut butter
This morning, I started thinking about how my weight loss isn’t going all that great. And while there are definitely things I need to be doing to get better results (exercise more than 2 runs a week, cut back even more on what I’m eating, etc.), I had to remind myself that I had already lost 10 pounds since Thanksgiving. I think most of it was just water weight, since I went from 196 to 186 in a little over a week. But still- those would have been nice numbers to see right now.
I am trying not to get down on myself too much, because that really won’t help anything. What I need to do is set my goals/rewards that I have talked about several times, but have yet to write out. So, that is my plan for today. I want to break down my next 15-20ish pounds into 5 pound segments and assign rewards for each goal that is met. Some of them won’t seem like anything major to you, but they are little, somewhat-superficial, modern conveniences that will make me feel good and hopefully spur me on to keep going.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Weight: 183 (I was at 181 yesterday and it was so exciting...stinkin' scale is never on my side 2 days in a row!)
Breakfast:
Special K granola w/skim milk
Banana
Lunch:
Ravanelli's was catered in...which was ironic because I had acutally packed leftover Ravanelli's King salad from last night...so I ate my salad, indulged in some mashed potatoes, 5 bites of moscaccoli (I have no idea how to spell that and neither does Word, apparently) and a piece of bread. I steered clear of the friend chicken, that was fairly easy because I could SMELL the grease- not appetizing!
Snack:
Small bowl of potatoes (Ugh, I can't help myself when it comes to them!) and another slice of bread with garlic butter...soo good. I almost didn't care how bad it was for me.
Exercise...no running for me until at least the weekend. :-(
Breakfast:
Special K granola w/skim milk
Banana
Lunch:
Ravanelli's was catered in...which was ironic because I had acutally packed leftover Ravanelli's King salad from last night...so I ate my salad, indulged in some mashed potatoes, 5 bites of moscaccoli (I have no idea how to spell that and neither does Word, apparently) and a piece of bread. I steered clear of the friend chicken, that was fairly easy because I could SMELL the grease- not appetizing!
Snack:
Small bowl of potatoes (Ugh, I can't help myself when it comes to them!) and another slice of bread with garlic butter...soo good. I almost didn't care how bad it was for me.
Exercise...no running for me until at least the weekend. :-(
Test, Shins, Fruit, and Happiness
It was brought to my attention just now (even though I already knew it and was trying to avoid the fact…) that I haven’t posted to this blog in over a week. That is partly because I wasn’t making 100% good decisions and hated to write about it, and partly because I realized I had missed a few days without my accountability partner (@Jaime) saying as much as a peep.
Now, we are completely notorious (in our own minds mostly) for starting something together and rarely finishing. In fact, the only thing we have ever gone completely through with was the Couch to 5K training and our 5K race back in December. So, I allowed myself the cop out that because Jaime wasn’t keeping my accountable for my lack of posting, I was going to see how long it would take for her to say something. The results are in: 1 week.
Yes, the test is finally over and now I am back. I was actually just thinking earlier today about what I wanted to blog about next. I thought I might do some more complaining about my shin issues and how I had to take a week off from running altogether in hopes of it healing before next weekend’s race (March 20th). But, I know I’m tired of talking about it, so I am sure you’re tired of reading/hearing about it. (Sorry for that, by the way).
I also thought I could tell you all about how Jason decided that he needs to get back into shape. This would have been a good post because when HE decides he needs to start running and eating right, it helps ME keep going. So, he practically bought out Wal-Mart’s fruits, veggies, nuts, Kashi, etc. yesterday. He always goes overboard. But, I’m so happy because I needed the boost of encouragement of knowing I’m not alone in doing this. But, I just didn’t really feel like going into it anymore that what I just did.
Next I thought I could share some of the “Little Things” that are currently making me happy and are helping to spur me on…doesn’t that sound fun? (O:
**My wedding rings are looser again! I can pull them off without having to lotion them up first and I have even had to re-situate them on my finger so all the diamonds are facing up! (Not “ALL” the diamonds like I’m dripping in them, but the polka dot diamonds on my band…) (O:
**My face is thinner! I found our family picture from the church directory photo shoot back in October…(which I immediately remembered why I hated it…I look SO WIDE. Hoping it was mostly the photographer’s fault..) Anyway, I showed my mother-in-law, without really thinking that I was thinner now, and she exclaimed “Look how much weight you’ve lost!” It was wonderful. Even though I have a long way to go yet, it was nice to see that I have come along from where I was.
**My calves have muscles! I just happened to catch a glimpse of them the other day while wear sweat pant capris and I was pleasantly surprised! I have always had “thick” calves my whole life and so I just try to avoid looking at them. But, this time wasn’t so bad! AND! The extra flab in my knee-pit area is decreasing too!! I know that was oddly descriptive, but I HATE my knees and all the surrounding areas because they are never very pretty…no matter what my weight, I always have extra flab that accumulates around my knees. But, as of now, the only flab left is above the knee, connecting to the thighs (which are a whole other story that I do not wish to share at the time..haha)
**I don’t die from going up and down the stairs. I can tell my endurance is improving because I’m not winded after climbing the stairs at the office or at home. Woo hoo for endurance!
I guess I better go so I can do my daily food log while I’m in the posting mood.
Now, we are completely notorious (in our own minds mostly) for starting something together and rarely finishing. In fact, the only thing we have ever gone completely through with was the Couch to 5K training and our 5K race back in December. So, I allowed myself the cop out that because Jaime wasn’t keeping my accountable for my lack of posting, I was going to see how long it would take for her to say something. The results are in: 1 week.
Yes, the test is finally over and now I am back. I was actually just thinking earlier today about what I wanted to blog about next. I thought I might do some more complaining about my shin issues and how I had to take a week off from running altogether in hopes of it healing before next weekend’s race (March 20th). But, I know I’m tired of talking about it, so I am sure you’re tired of reading/hearing about it. (Sorry for that, by the way).
I also thought I could tell you all about how Jason decided that he needs to get back into shape. This would have been a good post because when HE decides he needs to start running and eating right, it helps ME keep going. So, he practically bought out Wal-Mart’s fruits, veggies, nuts, Kashi, etc. yesterday. He always goes overboard. But, I’m so happy because I needed the boost of encouragement of knowing I’m not alone in doing this. But, I just didn’t really feel like going into it anymore that what I just did.
Next I thought I could share some of the “Little Things” that are currently making me happy and are helping to spur me on…doesn’t that sound fun? (O:
**My wedding rings are looser again! I can pull them off without having to lotion them up first and I have even had to re-situate them on my finger so all the diamonds are facing up! (Not “ALL” the diamonds like I’m dripping in them, but the polka dot diamonds on my band…) (O:
**My face is thinner! I found our family picture from the church directory photo shoot back in October…(which I immediately remembered why I hated it…I look SO WIDE. Hoping it was mostly the photographer’s fault..) Anyway, I showed my mother-in-law, without really thinking that I was thinner now, and she exclaimed “Look how much weight you’ve lost!” It was wonderful. Even though I have a long way to go yet, it was nice to see that I have come along from where I was.
**My calves have muscles! I just happened to catch a glimpse of them the other day while wear sweat pant capris and I was pleasantly surprised! I have always had “thick” calves my whole life and so I just try to avoid looking at them. But, this time wasn’t so bad! AND! The extra flab in my knee-pit area is decreasing too!! I know that was oddly descriptive, but I HATE my knees and all the surrounding areas because they are never very pretty…no matter what my weight, I always have extra flab that accumulates around my knees. But, as of now, the only flab left is above the knee, connecting to the thighs (which are a whole other story that I do not wish to share at the time..haha)
**I don’t die from going up and down the stairs. I can tell my endurance is improving because I’m not winded after climbing the stairs at the office or at home. Woo hoo for endurance!
I guess I better go so I can do my daily food log while I’m in the posting mood.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Weight: 184 (Boo, I hate weight fluctuations.)
Breakfast: Special K w/skim milk
Hot Chocolate at work bc it was freezing. (Will be stopping this...I found out today it is 2 POINTS for one cup...good greif!)
Lunch:
Garden salad with shredded chicken, cheese, red and yellow peppers and 2tbsp of Light Ranch. (I'm not sure how many points the chicken was since it was only a little bit, but the cheese was 1pt and the Ranch was 2)
Spaghetti Pomodoro from Pasta House...not so good. I didn't even eat 1/4 of it. I'm also not sure how many points it was. I was bad and ate TWO rolls. They are hard to resist when they are steamy warm. Darn myself!
I plan to eat the side salad that came with the Pasta House for dinner tonight...it was rather large and I didn't know I was even getting it!
Breakfast: Special K w/skim milk
Hot Chocolate at work bc it was freezing. (Will be stopping this...I found out today it is 2 POINTS for one cup...good greif!)
Lunch:
Garden salad with shredded chicken, cheese, red and yellow peppers and 2tbsp of Light Ranch. (I'm not sure how many points the chicken was since it was only a little bit, but the cheese was 1pt and the Ranch was 2)
Spaghetti Pomodoro from Pasta House...not so good. I didn't even eat 1/4 of it. I'm also not sure how many points it was. I was bad and ate TWO rolls. They are hard to resist when they are steamy warm. Darn myself!
I plan to eat the side salad that came with the Pasta House for dinner tonight...it was rather large and I didn't know I was even getting it!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Weight: 182!! (woo hoo! Even if this is just water weight, or my weight fluctuating...I'm still excited to see this number!)
Breakfast: Special K cereal w/skim milk
Two 12oz bottles of water by 10:30 and no snacking! (I have tortilla chips in my cabinet just calling out to me...but Orbit is keeping my "Cootie Queen" mouth dazzlingly clean! ...have you seen those commercials?? LOVE them!)
Lunch: I packed 2 small slices of grilled Turkey Breast and some boiled potatoes. I turned down Applebee's, resisting my favorite Oriental Grilled Chicken salad...I don't even want to know how many points that would be!
Dinner: Chicken Taco Salad from Qdoba...unfortunately, I forgot to ask for it "naked", so I had that yummy, crunchy shell just staring at me...and I gave in. I ate it. The. Whole. Thing. I felt a little bad, but then remembered that I had a pretty great day, eating-wise, so I didn't beat myself up over it.
Exercise: Tuesday Runners tonight!! Woo hoo! Now that I know I can run a full 3.1 miles without walking, I am going to really try and push myself to do so again tonight! My left calf has been sore since yesterday, so I'm working on stretching that sucker out today, in hopes that it won't be the reason that I want to quit tonight. Wish me luck! (O:
*Update* I met my ladies for our run and did pretty well. Unfortunately, I always get there as most of the other girls are finishing up, so I usually have to run alone. It gets a little lonely, but I ran 2 miles. I forgot to bring one of the Garmin's with me, so I have no idea how fast I was. But, it was good to just get out there and do it. Yay!
Breakfast: Special K cereal w/skim milk
Two 12oz bottles of water by 10:30 and no snacking! (I have tortilla chips in my cabinet just calling out to me...but Orbit is keeping my "Cootie Queen" mouth dazzlingly clean! ...have you seen those commercials?? LOVE them!)
Lunch: I packed 2 small slices of grilled Turkey Breast and some boiled potatoes. I turned down Applebee's, resisting my favorite Oriental Grilled Chicken salad...I don't even want to know how many points that would be!
Dinner: Chicken Taco Salad from Qdoba...unfortunately, I forgot to ask for it "naked", so I had that yummy, crunchy shell just staring at me...and I gave in. I ate it. The. Whole. Thing. I felt a little bad, but then remembered that I had a pretty great day, eating-wise, so I didn't beat myself up over it.
Exercise: Tuesday Runners tonight!! Woo hoo! Now that I know I can run a full 3.1 miles without walking, I am going to really try and push myself to do so again tonight! My left calf has been sore since yesterday, so I'm working on stretching that sucker out today, in hopes that it won't be the reason that I want to quit tonight. Wish me luck! (O:
*Update* I met my ladies for our run and did pretty well. Unfortunately, I always get there as most of the other girls are finishing up, so I usually have to run alone. It gets a little lonely, but I ran 2 miles. I forgot to bring one of the Garmin's with me, so I have no idea how fast I was. But, it was good to just get out there and do it. Yay!
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